A Conclusive End

If you told someone that they couldn’t die, would they try? or would they test fate and find an answer for themselves? It is in human nature that we are both bold and stubborn. Humans are unable to accept what is told and only will believe what is seen. In love and in life, definitive answers are a rare commodity. Blanket statements are not backed by strong arguments and data and do not provide enough evidence to allow for natural belief. It is not until it is seen through one’s eyes and felt with one’s hands that an actualized understanding is realized.

I watched the sunset as I boarded the train. Bundled up in heavy wool and a warm hat, I settled myself into a seat. As I try to delve into a book, my mind cannot stop racing as I think about you.

It felt like a gust of wind, an earthly shake that permeatedthrough my core and set my soul into volatility. I wanted to scream, I wanted to let the words escape my mouth as I cursed your name and let it be known. You’ve seen my heart and you’ve seen my body, what more did you want? Did you want my soul? Caged and guarded, I pained to hold onto the last part of me that you could not infect.

“What is happening to me?

I let him push through my veins

Our hearts beat together as he placed his lips on mine

What is happening to us?”

It took me time, but I finally found our faults. Cut with scissors we broke the very chord that kept us together. The first incision was forceful, cutting through fabric, cutting through flesh, and finally severing any ties that I had to you.  I asked a simple question – if you told someone they could not die, would they try? The very essence of ambiguity and nondefinitive answers would resonate at the top of mind. With a deliberative weighing the evils, you would attempt to formulate the most logical choice. If you act on the urge and live, then you the would have been successful, but if you try and die then you would have failed. The futility of this act is the very essence of ego, the desire to overpower will. As we move through the tumultuous motions of obscurity, we brace for impact as we feel the lurch of time overpower our very will. Through careful thought and waiting, one cannot lose.

With a deliberative weighing of the evils, you would attempt to formulate the most logical choice. If you act on the urge and live, then you the would have been successful, but if you try and die then you would have failed. The futility of this act is the very essence of ego, the desire to overpower will. As we move through the tumultuous motions of obscurity, we brace for impact as we feel the lurch of time overpower our very will. Through careful thought and waiting, one cannot lose.

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