Amelioration & the rise from The Cave.

As I sit at my kitchen table and watch the snow flurries glide past my balcony, I am left speechless over the events of the morning. As it so happens, once you begin to publish your feeling onto the internet they are easily accessible by everyone… everyone including “Him”. He has now read my blog,…

Insanity and a drunken stupor.

Drunk and light headed, I sit down at Witt’s desk and begin to write. The demons in which I have been desperately trying to hide have quickly unearthed and have risen to the surface. Within life, we can only try to contain our own minds for so long…but there comes a time when we must…

One scent for a story.

Do you know the feeling where you you breathe in, and recognize a certain scent that is in the air? I do not know what this is or how it is done, but your brain recalls this scent and takes you back to a moment within your life where you first came in contact with…

Nicholas Cage & my wandering thoughts.

11:12 am and I am sitting in a Literature class watching a film about the growing anxieties and constant sexual fantasies of a character played by Nicholas Cage; Truly Fascinating. No matter how hard I try, I am too focussed on the utter blackness of the future. For once in my life I have been…

Fading deeper into black.

Technology is the killer of human interaction. How could I have been so stupid? Once again I fell for someone who does not care for me as much as I thought they did. For the first time in my life I was finally happy with where I was in my life, I had “Him”, and…

Touch my clothes, and I punch your face.

The Toronto cold is at full force as the deadly winter temperatures drop to a devastating low of -22. Draped in my oversized American Apparel scarf and heavy winter jacket I take the first step into the frigid air. With Witt by my side we make the commute to our evening class. Upon entering my…

Glimmers of light & Double stuffed Oreos.

I am not sure if I am the only university student out there who feels lost, but I am currently on a train to nowhere. Seated cross legged on my bed scanning through two of the required readings I need to finish, I feel as if I am at a sense of loss. It truly…

To cease and to end.

Closure, the act of finding peace within a situation. Closure is definitely an important aspect of letting go, for it is rather impossible to fully let go without achieving some form of settlement. Closure provides a denouement for any situation, as it provides you with the answers to questions that have been nagging at your…

Romanticizing the hookup app.

When living in a city filled with singles,  it seems like it would be rather simple to get a date, but is this true?…No. It seems that many people have drifted away from the conventional forms of meeting others, and have moved into the world of online dating and or hookups. With the use of…

High rises and skylines.

Last night I had the sudden urge to head home. I made the walk to the city train station, purchased a ticket and hopped on board. This was my first time taking the train since moving to the city. As riding, I learned that I am absolutely thankful that I am no longer commuting. Upon…

Sad faces in packed places.

Last night was all a blur. As it turns out, I decided to go to a party with a couple friends. With a 375mL bottle of Jager in hand, we headed out into the vast abyss of sweaty bodies within a cloud of intoxication. Prior to leaving, I was sitting cross legged on Witt’s  bed…

Deeper into the dark.

They say that yearning makes the heart grow fonder, but is this statement true or is it just plain bullshit? When you have strong feelings for someone and they do not reciprocate them, this does NOT make the heart grow fonder, it just makes the situation much more difficult. I am dealing with a seemingly…